Take the Leap.

Have faith it will lead you somewhere. 

Somewhere is better than being in stasis. A chance or a leap, might not take you to where you want but if you stay put, you'll most definitely get no where. There is no betting on how well something will work out but if you're doing something you enjoy, it won't be in vain.

Getting out of a routine, isn't the easiest thing. In fact, a routine is the easiest thing to slip into. Almost like a nicely worn out t-shirt, frayed at all the right places, has a hole or two to make it breezy and feels like home. It feels like nothing can go wrong, especially if that is all you have been doing. Nothing of that is wrong, it's just that, there is so much more to life and there really is, so little time. 

Who doesn't want a good job? Who doesn't want good money? Who doesn't want a stable life? Who doesn't want to fulfill dreams and desires? Even so, how many of us have the courage to take that leap? That significantly huge leap. It might mean giving up stability, and/or certain responsibilities, it could truly change your life, but that is the thing, for better or worse? That always seems like the deal-breaker but can it really be measured in that sense? Not really.

In the past few months, i have been motivating people around me to start small projects to spice up their life. Working life can be a big rain-cloud but that doesn't mean you shouldn't have time to do things that you love and will make you love life as you should. If life was a game, think of all the secret achievements you have yet to stumble upon. No hacking.

2014 is coming to an end and i honestly feel that it was a year wasted for me. I only have myself to kick-in-the-ass for but i do have good memories of it. I am a crazy project-starter but admittedly, my attention span can be wanting, in which i end up with a handful of great ideas but none that have been completed. 

So i have decided to make all my future projects, the kind that doesn't have an ending to it, a continuously progressing sort of thing. That i am able to continue doing them, even though i may take...a little more time than most.

Me.

   A title befitting of a blog. Of my blog at least. I have been urged, time and again to start writing blogging. Procrastination and a lack of ideas put me off it. I blogged for a bit, back when one of my best friends went abroad to study, my blog was in some ways, for her to read. This, is for me. Myself to read when i need to be reminded, of who i am and used to be.

   When i was younger, i had a lot of faith and confidence in my way with words. I wrote nothing fancy, it was all just very simple, very much like myself. I've always felt that words that move you, were the ones that portrayed your thoughts in the easiest possible way to understand. No supercalifragilisticexpialidoxious (close enough) supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. Plain and simple, does wonders.

   I don't know where my belief in my own writing went to nor when it went away but i do hope that this will bring it home. I am not expecting to move mountains and part seas with what i write, but i do hope to entertain and comfort with it.

   The main reason why i am writing again is because i had an epiphany. I had an epiphany that was cause by a dream. It was more like a nightmare but since it brought about this, i shall call it a dream. Even as i recall that dream, it still unsettles me a lot. 

   I have come to realise, that i, do not want to forget. It is inevitable (forgetting), for memories are very fickle. Some stay, some get distorted and some are just...forgotten. I have (as with everyone) people in my lives who make life a beautiful place and i do not want to have to blame my memory for not remembering them as they are, beautiful and precious.

   To a fresh start. I hope to achieve something with this, wherever it may lead me to.

忘れないで

#8yearswithTVXQ

My first post in a newly revived blog to commemorate TVXQ's 8th Anniversary. This is the day 5 individuals were given a chance to finally be on stage as 1. 26th of December 2003. I sincerely believe that it was a beautiful day for many people out there, myself included.

Its hard putting into words these feelings i have for this situation they are in now. All i know is, without a single doubt in my mind, if i were given another chance to be a fan - be a Cassiopeia, i would never turn it down. All the tears and heart-ache these past years have brought me - brought all Cassies, can never compare to the love these 5 men have brought us.

Jung Yunho. Kim Jaejoong. Park Yoochun. Kim Junsu. Shim Changmin.

Sure, many people see us fans as being a little crazy and delusional for fangirling over Korean superstars. This i do not entirely disagree with but lets face it, many of us have celebrity crushes - this is no different. Heck, we've all had crushes on people we barely know.

The point is that TVXQ have inspired many. They've indirectly helped many people. I've met many Cassies online and each of them had a story to tell. How they began loving these 5. How these 5 have helped them overcome a rough patch in life with just their voices and beautiful personality. How TVXQ inspired them to be better. TVXQ has become a pillar of support for many people who are falling apart out there. The only thing we can offer in return is our unwavering support, love and faith in them.

The fandom might be split in someways but do not ever forget, if they did not come together as 5 then, we would not ever have them as they are now. Whether it is JYJ and HoMin, they will still be TVXQ for the faithful. I have faith. As much as it hurts, i have faith.

" There is a type of belief that is not worship, a type of support that is not blind, a type of interaction that overcomes barriers, and a type of faith that knows no boundaries. "

I saved that quote when i read it from an article. It was written by a Cassiopeia and i feel exactly what she was trying to say. I know there is a future when they will stand together on stage as DB5K. That is my faith in them. I know not when it might be but my faith in that future keeps me strong enough to see them through these years.

Even though TVXQ will not read this, i thank them. I sincerely with all my heart, thank my 5 oppa's for all their hard work and their determination to keep staying strong for us. They have sacrificed a lot to be who they are and who are we to make little of that.

Always Keeping the Faith